In the Air!

In the Air!
400 feet above the ground in Orlando.

Florida

Florida
Taking my first step towards a new life.

Virginia

Virginia
Spending an afternoon at Marymount during my internship!

My rocks!

My rocks!
Wouldn't be where I am without my parents!

Graduation

Graduation
Walking for my Masters. An interesting book end as this all started when I graduated from undergrad!

Awesome Nurses!

Awesome Nurses!
After my port removal and saying goodbye to my chemo nurses before moving away from Michigan. Wouldn't be doing that without them!

Hair again!

Hair again!
Growing longer each day

Last Chemo

Last Chemo

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Sunday, January 3, 2016

365 Things to Smile About Day 149. Focusing on Today.

Today I got a lot done!  I got up, went to church, went grocery shopping, had a healthy lunch, cleaned my apartment and worked on my study guide, getting it printed in manageable bites.  It felt good!  Especially because the past couple months I have been struggling with motivation and so many other things.  I know why I was struggling but it still took me a while to act on it.  So now I am acting.

I feel lighter, happier and able to just get out there and do not just what I have to do but what I want to do.  Also I have had to not just recognize but also accept lately that doing what I WANT to do isn't a bad thing.

I also learn something else today, and maybe it is obvious to everyone else but it was yet another thing I had to learn on my own.  I learned I can only focus on one day at a time right now.  I have been so busy since treatment trying to plan the rest of my life and get to the rest of my life as soon as possible that I didn't see how I was causing myself more struggles than I needed!  So today I only really focused on today.  Just what I wanted to do today.  And I got a lot done!  If I found myself thinking beyond today I noticed I started to loose momentum and had to just push all those anxious thoughts out of my mind.  It felt good:).  So while I know this isn't the most hilarious and obvious thing to smile about...I am rather happy with myself and can't help but smile over a simple, good day:)

2 comments:

Amy King said...

Funny, but I have the opposite reaction to my cancer diagnosis. I have made every effort to scale down my life and focus just one day at a time. My chemo is supposed to be done the first week of April. My life starts anew after that.

I am so happy for you. That you are focusing on yourself and what you want. Good luck with the study guide. By the way, I grew up in the Traverse City area and spent some time on the Western Michigan campus as a high school student. I still know many of the music faculty there.

Best wishes!
Amy

Catherine said...

Hi Amy!
I was pretty much strictly that during treatment and for months afterwards...then I just jumped and started running!!

Go WMU:)