Thursday, August 25, 2016
My New Normal. Days 4 & 5. Overwhelming
Moving to a new city can be stressful. Moving to a new state is starting to feel beyond that. I've noticed something of late. It's harder to stay focused when I feel like I'm getting no where. Apartment hunting has become overwhelming and I'm trying to find a way to make it less so.
The actual hunting won't get any easier but I'm hoping I can find ways to relax and loosen up. I get pulled into my work and that's good but once the day is over I feel like it's all falling on my head. I didn't use to have this problem. I could look at what was becoming overwhelming and come up with a solution and fix it. Now, I can't seem to get my thoughts together when it's a personal struggle like this. Another new reaction.
I sometimes wonder if the difficulty in organizing my personal life now is because I lost complete control of it when I was sick. Somehow the professional aspect is easier to deal with because there are guidelines and a clear path. Personally, moving to another state and leaving all my friends and boyfriend almost 1000 miles away, trying to find a place to live and meeting new friends...just thinking about this is making my anxiety kick up! And I'm in the middle of it!
Being far away from your support system and slowly trying to build a new one, maybe that's part of the problem. I'm excited to be taking my first step into my new career but I'm honestly scared of being really on my own down here. Taking one small step at a time and trying to not get completely overwhelmed. I know I can do this but it won't happen over night.