365 Things to Smile About Day 361. Thank You Netflix

I will be very up front right now.  I feel miserable.  Wether it is the flu or possible food poisoning I don't know but starting yesterday late afternoon through late this afternoon the nausea has been coming in waves. :(.  I ended up leaving work only a half an hour after getting there it got so bad again.

When i got home I ended up curling up in bed crying because all I could do was remember being sick after chemo and how very long that stretched out and horrible that felt.  It felt like I was back there again.  It took a while to stop crying and that didn't help the nausea.  I think flashbacks are some of the hardest things to deal with these days.  Fortunately they are not often but when they come, the last thing I want is to be alone.

So I curled up again and turned on Netflix.  I dozed through many episodes of Gilmore Girls and then dozed through several episodes of Black Dawg Salvage or something like that.  And I didn't care that I missed it all, it just helped me push those memories away hearing voices that almost always had a happy tome to them.  It made my mind go somewhere other than those memories.

Now the nausea is gone but I still feel completely worn out and exhausted.  Which is yet another memory I don't want to dwell on for now so I think I shall be returning to dozing through a show for the evening.  But thank you Netflix for taking me out of myself and giving me something to smile about today.:)